I got mood swing this few days. I have wide range of thoughts at a time.Sometimes ,I can be so emotional and I just sat in my office and cry. After that I go to the wards and meet my clients again ---internal and external clients.
Now it is school holidays. It also affect me in the hospital! They follow their parents and relatives to hospital! I hate that. because it is not their place to go!I hate to face the parents or relatives. I would talk to them instead. I will pad their shoulder and talk to them. They are very cooperative most of the time.I will tell them--do you know that this is hospital? Why are you coming here? You all go to school? You learn about the bacteria thingy in school? they will node their head . And then ,I will tell them not to come again next time. And I usually ask them to hold little finger as a promise. It is so cute sometimes. I am fade up with that way---may be will come out with another way next time.
When I come to the office, I feel lonely .I think of the words people used to say----you are so straight forward. You always talk as if you are the winner.You always think that you are great and you are nothing!you think you are clever but you are nuts!These comments keep turning in my mind. And it doesn't go away ! It s sort of hurting me all the time. What a life I am living! your children also left you because you are a bad mother. Am I like what someone says? I am confused. I always thought my children left home for good. But what is the comments at the end of the day ? OMG . God , I leave it to you for good judgement. I am tired!
10 Malaysia plan... We have a part to play as well.2 days ago, we receive a circular on planning on 10 Malaysia plan. And the dead line is 30/11/2009. Malaysia government like to give short notice of doing things.So yesterday ,I have to go to search for information's. Only to find out that the people who are involve, all go on leave! This is Malaysia boleh!Whole day spend my time for nothing much.I try my level best to tell my Nursing sisters to do what have to be done.So their weekend have to be spent on 10 Malaysia plan.
Our right hand side Kuching neighbour come from else where for holiday. At the same time ,they cut the backyard tall grass. I am sort of scared because it looks like a haunted house with the tall grass. And the other day I saw a big rat inside the compound. I hate rats.The neighbour are noisy.
I am harvesting the guava from our back yard. It is as big as the newborn baby's head. It is really rewarding! I like the feeling of harvesting the fruit you grown by yourself.
This weekend I am going to Sarikei ( no more Sarikei home!)to join Ah Han's wedding.I heard that this couple had hard saving for their wedding. They both just come out to work .And they don't earn much. They have to spend so much for their wedding. well, every one gets married. No need to spend a lot on your wedding. cin cai sedikit lah.
Today is public holiday, I am not working. so I get up early to blog.
Last night DD and I talk in the lap top . I am so Happy over it.I have learn a lot of staff from DD. She is never angry over me when I ask stupid questions. DD thank you so much.
I still remember the 1st time DD hold my hand to teach me how to sms.My hands become so stiff with all this little electronic thingy! But I make it . Thank you so much DD.gtg with my laundry and household thingy.
Now it is school holidays. It also affect me in the hospital! They follow their parents and relatives to hospital! I hate that. because it is not their place to go!I hate to face the parents or relatives. I would talk to them instead. I will pad their shoulder and talk to them. They are very cooperative most of the time.I will tell them--do you know that this is hospital? Why are you coming here? You all go to school? You learn about the bacteria thingy in school? they will node their head . And then ,I will tell them not to come again next time. And I usually ask them to hold little finger as a promise. It is so cute sometimes. I am fade up with that way---may be will come out with another way next time.
When I come to the office, I feel lonely .I think of the words people used to say----you are so straight forward. You always talk as if you are the winner.You always think that you are great and you are nothing!you think you are clever but you are nuts!These comments keep turning in my mind. And it doesn't go away ! It s sort of hurting me all the time. What a life I am living! your children also left you because you are a bad mother. Am I like what someone says? I am confused. I always thought my children left home for good. But what is the comments at the end of the day ? OMG . God , I leave it to you for good judgement. I am tired!
10 Malaysia plan... We have a part to play as well.2 days ago, we receive a circular on planning on 10 Malaysia plan. And the dead line is 30/11/2009. Malaysia government like to give short notice of doing things.So yesterday ,I have to go to search for information's. Only to find out that the people who are involve, all go on leave! This is Malaysia boleh!Whole day spend my time for nothing much.I try my level best to tell my Nursing sisters to do what have to be done.So their weekend have to be spent on 10 Malaysia plan.
Our right hand side Kuching neighbour come from else where for holiday. At the same time ,they cut the backyard tall grass. I am sort of scared because it looks like a haunted house with the tall grass. And the other day I saw a big rat inside the compound. I hate rats.The neighbour are noisy.
I am harvesting the guava from our back yard. It is as big as the newborn baby's head. It is really rewarding! I like the feeling of harvesting the fruit you grown by yourself.
This weekend I am going to Sarikei ( no more Sarikei home!)to join Ah Han's wedding.I heard that this couple had hard saving for their wedding. They both just come out to work .And they don't earn much. They have to spend so much for their wedding. well, every one gets married. No need to spend a lot on your wedding. cin cai sedikit lah.
Today is public holiday, I am not working. so I get up early to blog.
Last night DD and I talk in the lap top . I am so Happy over it.I have learn a lot of staff from DD. She is never angry over me when I ask stupid questions. DD thank you so much.
I still remember the 1st time DD hold my hand to teach me how to sms.My hands become so stiff with all this little electronic thingy! But I make it . Thank you so much DD.gtg with my laundry and household thingy.
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