sial, sial and sial............

I am always wandering-- am I so sial?
beranak girl.....sial
the shop house burnt down...... po chai bor !
not earning money in shares....... sial because my mulut besar
getting heart attack ....... the wife is at fault,
going for operation.......the wife is wrong
going for promotion..... the wife is at fault again, because she ask him to apply for promotion.
once more again , and again, and again........and again .....and again......... the wife is for ever sial.
now what again...........
the children courses .........the wife is at fault again .
I am always blamed whenver the thing come out not to his likings. I am at my top patience already.

2 weeks ago, the wave came again,
I was told to stop him to look at the TV and lap top on saham things .
so I am too kind sometimes, so whenever he see, I just remind him don't see again.
The whole night up and down, doing what , I don't know.
Around 2 or 3 am, I wake up and see him seeing the shares things with the lap top again!
So I say ,try not to see the share market again lah, since you tell me to stop you.
He scolded me so loud . I think the whole row of the inmates can hear his voice."The money is mine , why do you have 2 bother. I finish my money, then I will commit suicide."I feel so shameful of neighbouring to hear us, I stop instantly.
I go 2 work in the morning.
I rang him from work place, hoping 2 tell him 2 stop the share thing. He shouted and scold me again over the phone.He say thing like-- I am not fit 2 become his wife, he no need me 2 remind him of what 2 do n many more. I say, it is OK 4 me, all the words are from his mouth. So i say I wouldn't talk 2 u again.
So till 2day, I didn't talk.


May b around 4 or 5 in the morning, he get up from sleep n scold me----alone talking--cursing me all sort of thing from his mouth.
I pretend not 2 hear.But I heard everything.

SIAL,SIAL, SIAL----just like the worm, kana pun SIAL----- and drive off into the thin air.

I am just wandering, who 's sial? mind u, I am not sial, I supported all my children to school. they are all ok now. Please continued to be ok, for the sake of ur mummy. ur mum has no position in the family. But it is ok. I have all of you to be proud of. I am so happy with you all. You all are my pride.