computer course...

I go to computer lab to learn computer excel for 3 days--23-25/6/2009. Realy interesting and we learn a lot of things. I love it so much. Dad had fell sick last week. But after the antibiotics, he as if no more sick. Antibiotics work very well on him , GBhim. Sometimes ,he is like a little kid. Y ?Y? Y? meaning that I have to nurse a little boy from now on.

advice meant to be good.........

I ring Ah Yang today. I tell him a lot of things. I even tell him to tell his mum off of the way she treats anty Chiew Huong . I tell him that he is a man now, he should be able to distinguish correct and wrong things. When he try to help anty, his mum will say that her disease will pass on to him. What a thing to say? Call herself a nurse! OMG ! I am very sure Yang knows what is the right thing to do in life.But not the mum. She is also very bad to grandma when she is alive. She even chase her out from the house at one time. Even Ah Hui also very bad to grandma.gtg

you really want to get the things that you don't have..........

We are funny creatures. When you have something , you don't really want it anymore. you always want to get something that you don't have. I really want to have a car. Every day I dream of the car. I am really very excited about it. But now ,when you have it , you feel that is a burden. The maintenance( not much actually), the oil the jam etc. I use back my motorbike again! I feel so comfortable with it. But of cause no pride. But I don't really care about it now. I want happiness within myself.

When you are staying high up in the sky,and you don't see the green Pasteur, you really want to see it. But when you stay in the country side, you hate the greens.That is what we are. We don't treasure the thing we have, we envy other people 's things. that is life.

mind your own business.............

I receive a call from my 5Th uncle last night. Sort of taken by surprise! That uncle never "hew " you type. Because he knows how to make money in his crooked way. In a way he is rich... but not that rich.He has many wives---Chinese,Bidayuh etc. and he has many children. So I don't know who my cousins are... hiding one.

He is ringing to ask how to apply to become a nurse, he says is for his friend's girl. I wander how true it is. He knows best. He will meet me to get the e mail address.

Lately, dad talk to me a lot about his family matter. Some I feel sad to hear. About his brother who died of advance cancer of the lung and Bantu carcinoma. I still remembered the last time he can walk. That time dad is still teaching. Dad come to Kuching to visit me. I am the one who always encourage him to visit his brother. Sometimes he refuse to go, his reason being scared to see. I don't know what is that to be scared of. That is the Tang family's behaviour. their mother, other brother, sisters never come to visit him. They never visit him in person when he is sick in hospital or at his home while he was sick. Only his wife is with him most of the time. His children also seldom visit him in hospital. Even his doctor girl also seldom visit him. I know it because I always visit him when he was in hospital. I wander how is her girl to be a good doctor next time. GOK .Talk about their eldest daughter--- short like her mother. Can flirt with anybody one. but until today still no boy friend. 2Nd daughter-- born charming. but had Stephen Johnson Disease which is badly stimulated by her elder sister who work for a private practitioner in Bintulu last time. The story was that ,she was allergy to one of the antibiotic . Her elder sister,knowing little knowledge on drugs, force her to finish her antibiotic even though she is already showing sign of allergy. That is why her condition was terrible. One of the doctor who attended to her tell me that one of her eye was blind. She looked quite horrible to me. DD has seen her. Their family never want people to know until today.Lately I heard that she got a boy friend. want to get marry soon. Last time got BF but no more. This time don't know jadi or not. 3rd daughter is a medical student. the itik boy--got girl friend. Now in form 6.--follow the girl friend.gtg

usual ways............

I have been using motorbike to come to work for sometime already. It is so convenient. I park just at the entrance. A few people do that. There is the full row of bikes up there. I saw few ladies as well. Actually I save a lot of time and money . I spent only 10 - 15 minutes per trip. Or if I use car, I spent 1/2-1 hour on the road! I can do a lot of things with that an hour or so. Who cares what people think of me!May be people will think that I am so poor that I don't own a car, but whatever it is , as long as I am happy. Actually I am so stress up being in the traffic jam.

Last few days, dad has not been doing well in his saham. Sometimes ,I hate his style. He comes back exhausted, telling stories of tipu in the share market. But I say, no one force you to buy the share market thing. You bring yourself there. so you have to bear the pain of it.After he sees the graph thing and the trend of share market in the net, he tells me again that ,everything is good. OMG! last night seems not OK, but morning seems good. What is that? Sometimes I really wander whether he knows something of the share thing!But I am very grateful that he decided to stop the whole thing! He told me to draw out all the cash, so that he can stop. Praise the Lord.

I keep telling him to stop, or else his money will be off hands just like that. I even tell him that I can only feed his mouth ! I can't afford the other thing for him. He will say that I am the loser for ever. Who the loser? Many quarrels over the share things. I really hate it so much.

I like to show him DD photos, he like to see. But I have to get for him because he refuse to know our passwords.gtg

kind of busy during my on call week................

I am on call from 13-19/6/2009. I prefer to go round on Saturday. Because I can go to church on Sunday and I can take a rest for work on Monday. The rule is that I must go round once , for at least 6 hours after working hours. I can claim for 6 hours---got formula for claiming overtime. So if I go for 6 hours at week end, I can claim Rm 144.60. I have promised myself to buy beautiful clothing, still not yet find one!
Sort of real busy! searching for ventilator beds for the neurology surgeons. The places suppose to have ventilated patients, are up to maximum. Where am I to find?Ring here and there for solution. But I am not the bed manager.I ended up ringing the bed manager. She advices me to advice the surgeon to buy service from outside hospitals. The issue come back to me because the hospital director refuses to buy service outside. So I ring again ! With all the hoo ha and commotion, at last we are able to get 2 slots for the Neuro surgeon. That is after nearly 2 hours of hard work!So we are happy at the end.
difference of ideas....
I get up in the morning (13/6/2009) I found our big dustbin disappeared! I see around and found our dustbin is kept inside our renting neighbour house. The renting people have moved out. I noticed different people there.Omg! It is so troublesome without a dustbin!So I grubble a bit. I wrote a note and paste to their gate.I am sort of worried if these people get out afterwards, it is difficult for me to meet them.Furthermore, I don't know who they are. Definitely not the house owner!As I do all these things, Dad says that I over react over the whole thing!Then I ask him, if they get out of the place, and may be they are from elsewhere, they will return , but they will keep the bin till their next return. Then how le? Dad says climb in. Omg! climb in to thief our own thing! that is his idea, and definitely not mine. We always quarrel over difference of opinions and ideas! When I ask him to solve the problem, he is not able to, but he says I over do.You all become my judges.

the visitors..

For 3 consecutive days we have visitors.They all like cardiology! So I am always in the group. Sorts of busy bringing them to cardiac clinic only. But they are a few of us. So life is a bit easier.But after the visitors left, we have a lunch drug talk. So I bring the other 2 matrons to join as well. Not bad, we have a sling beg, a ball point pen,and lunch (FOC) but the most important thing, we have the knowledge which money can not buy.

Next week I am on call duty. So I have to come down to work tomorrow. But it is OK , because I can claim for money-- 6 hours for RM 144.60. I have claimed for 4 months already. So I want to buy nice clothing for myself.gtg

DD is defferent while in oversea.....

I show Dd Singapore photos to dad . He says Dd look different ! She looks more of happy smile while at home and in school. Ha.. ha.. that is why have to get out of the cocoon to see the outside world. Dd, we were let you out of the country if you are at your semester break! I am a different mum ! I am very open! I never stop my girls from making friends of different race. gtg I need to work.

sleepless dawn........

It is raining outside.I wake up around 3am and can't get back to sleep again. Then I start thinking a lot of stuff.
I think of my late parents.I think of them happily together-gether.( Malaysian English) I know my parents have try their level best to give us the best of what they can offer at that time. Yesterday I took leave and was with my sister -Suk for the whole morning.She has a RHB bank manager who is willing to help us to invest cash in ASB. Money for higher interest. We open accounts for ASB. We shared a lot of past experiences in life. We envy her parents so much.In the 1950s, their parents starts sending their children to overseas--England. And their family is formerly from Bintangor as well. I see that if parents have far vision, their children can do better in life than those conservative ones.My parents are very conservative. If I mention of somewhere outside Bintangor, they were never allowed. To them , Bintangor is the biggest place and safest to stay! They are scared of outside world. That is their mentality! but nothing happen to us! we are better outside Bintangor.I can assured you, definitely we are much ,much better outside our small place of Bintangor.
And also the Chinese family love male more than female. that is for sure. But that manager family is different!. She was relating to us that her late father said that girls are even more important in terms of education. I love the way her parents think of life. That is why I am very rebellious when people talk about not sending the female siblings to school. May be that is why God give me all the girls. God I thank you of all what you gave me.
I also think of the selfish relatives as what Nong Nong mention in her blog. They are funny people . They only know to receive and not to give.We will see how much better they are!So girls, we must strive for better things in life. mum will offer what is best for you all to become better people than them.

Unhappy day............

why me?

I hate to covering duty for someone who like to talk stupid things and yet they themselves are nuts! I cover for chief matron who go to some other function elsewhere out of Kuching town. So come these visitors --I actually don't know who they are and I don't know their objectives of the visit. I was told to welcome them only. So come the dialogue session. ALL THE OTHERS BLAME ME For NOT VOICING OUT ANY PROBLEMS from the NURSING DIVISION.They say why you don't say something? what am I to say? why can't they all say something if they are smart enough to make noise. I have been very vocal and I am being kicked here and there over the last 5 years or so. I hate our country sometimes for that stupid behaviour. gtg

no need to spend money to make people happy........

I am so happy!
my children ring me when I think of them! there are times when you think of your love ones a lot.If only that time when that someone ring you-- you feel so happy and relieve. life is just like that! WE DON'T HAVE TO SPEND MONEY TO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY! Especially me. sometimes when I am so hungry, an egg will make me happy.

*Soothing words make my day.

*A hot cup of favourable drink make me happy, --THE OATS WITH MILO OR VICOR & SOME ENERCAL in the morning.

*In the hot afternoon, a glass of cold mango drink will make me on top of the world.

*my favourable fruits-guess what i like to eat..........

*and many more.

gtg

The Aussie family.....husband , wife, and 3 children...

During the Gawai period, there is this Aussie family who came to Sarawak for holiday. They come and they catch flu.They go and see doctor in private clinic and they were send to Sarawak General Hospital (SGH) for guarantee for suspicious of H1N1 inflenza infection. WHO protocol is to guarantee people within 7 days of flu like symptoms for travellers who come from infected countries. They will be released once proven negative of Type A H1N1 virus.
The SGH team were alerted and they were admitted to our infection ward.Many things were encountered during that period.

language barrier...
The father always complain in Aussie slang---the nurse look at me ( sort of blank) when I talk to them. They don't do what I tell them to do.They don't answer me......I don't blame my nurses... They don't understand you! Our Malaysia English is of low standard We speak Malaysia English--gramma--no....slang---- Malay slang etc...... You talk to people like me, I will understand. My English standard is sort of high( I am graduated from Senior Cambridge of London).Gheran... you understand what I say, do you?

Food.....
Because of cultural differences, we all eat different types of foods.Nobody is to be blamed.
In Aussie slang again....The 6 years old girl say.........(they were served porridge with ikan billis) I don't know how to eat the little fish in the 'mass'. I pity my nurses ---out from their own pocket, they order pizza for them. Then their father says, my kids are happier , after they eat the pizza.We Malaysian are good people. We care, we love you all , especially Australians. You agree with me ,Gheran?Ha..........Ha.........But Gheran, you no problem, you eat anything dad cook for you. We all like your taste of food. Keep up!

The worries.........
The Aussie family were worried to death for the hospital bill. The bread winner.--the father keeps wanting to ring the High commissioner of Australia.........They are foreigners, they will be charged 1st class charge. It is expensive. If I were them, I worry sampai hell........ But....... nothing to worry at all! Malaysia is good in certain thing. Our country's law is we don't charge---not even a cent (food also free of charge--FOC--including the pizza!) for communicable (infectious) diseases.
No more worries after 24 hours quarantine. The results were A-positive, H -positive, N also positive.BUT ,it don't match Type A H1N1! So they were release from 'jail' after 24 hours of admission .Praise The Lord! if more foreigners, more unforeseen circumstances for us! When my phone rings...........if it is sgh, I am extra alert.When will my worries gone? The Australian family is free from worries by now , or may be they are happily home. My worries not yet end....................................

Have to be fierce....

When I start work on 3/6/2009,the 3 sisters in my areas were all taking leave or off. So my work is heavy. Yesterday when I go to cardiac thoracic ward, sort of shock! The board who are written patient 's name, bed no 11.........ROSAK.... sort of angry. Cant we not get someone to repair it? I straight away telephone to Faber for help. The vendor came not long after I call.They get it fixed straight away.

But I was not happy with the other bed...no14. It has been out of order for at list 2 months. The answer they give me is that....waiting for spare parts.. ie the motor. So I also believe them. We have waited patiently. I asked myself. If only the motor send from US also it would be with us by now! I took this opportunity to get angry with the Faber side. I ring them and ask them to see to the situation.Mr Anel came to see me around 1130am. I told him to get thing done today. He beg from me ..tomorrow.At 1st , I say ..no. he beg and beg, out of pity.. I say......what time can you give me a written report on the matter.Then he said , tomorrow before 4 pm.

I went to the ward again today. I noticed 3 men coming to repair the bed. Their top boss also coming. I knew him. I approach him. Not long after that , they come to me telling me that it is done. I ask what is actually happening? He told me that , one of the digital get short circuit. OMG.. so simple thing and we wait for more than 2 mouths?

Happy working after the long holidays

Start work on 3/6/2009. Happy working--time pass very fast. I love it . DD go to Singapore on 3/6 evening at 640 pm flight by Air Asia. I didn't send her off because of the inconvenient timing. But she is loved by dad so much. Dad waited till she goes in to the waiting area. DD always do last minute packing. She even sms me which bag to use! She is such a joyful girl ! I love her so much. But mind you, my love is equally divided among the 4 girls, a little bit for dad only!When dd go to Singapore, I feel sort of lonely. But when I see her alone at home, I am neither happy nor lonely! I want her to experience life outside the cocoon. I want her to grow up as the other sisters do.I want her to be independent. so that she can do anything at her own will.May God be with her!

feel real bored if not working.

I feel real bored when not working. For the last 2 days, I am rather restless. I always think to myself, can I stand the retirement next time? Can't stand the boredom at home. I tried to do all sorts of things and I still got so much time not doing anything!--- I on the TV all the time......pop in anytime to see whatever it is on the screen, then switch on to one station after another! I go to the net , check all mails, facebook etc. Oh real bored!

Flash thoughts..........

suddenly wake up from sleep and can't sleep after that.Thinking of the France Air Line that vanished into the sea and many other things.
Thinking of DD a lot.She is camping in Suntubong Resort right now!.....where is she now? what is she doing? Is she safe? Then thinking of her, always get out of the crowd to be by her self if she feels bored. Many thoughts!Then I realise that she didn't Tex me since morning. So I look at the time. it is 12:30 am! Just try to sms her and see if she is OK.About 20 minutes or so, she sms back. All my worries were gone. What a relieve!
we are funny creatures. we like to think of stupid things. But praise the Lord. You are always with me.
I am taking 2 on calls. One is general call and the other is the H1N1 call.The sister on call ring me for a problem. And suddenly I tune my mind to it.gtg

sort of funny..

Is been so hot! I went to Serberkas supermarket around 3 :30pm. They are not many people. May be everybody want to hide in the house. I went to buy indomie. I took 6 packets. The cashier say , each customer limits to 2 packets. So I obediently pay 6 packets in 3 counters. OMG! this is Malaysia!

along at home.

I was never alone at Kuching house. This is the 1st time! sort of lonely. But luckily got lap top and stuff. Actually I am looking after the clothing which I wash this morning.or else I also want to go out. But never mind, I want to go out later on. DD go for church camping in Santubong this morning. I sort of encourage her to go. I don't like her stay at home too much.She has too much time at home.I thought of doing many things. but when come to it , I am lazy.