past few days events

hell of sufferings for the past week

after the fall on the 6/12/2009

my backache getting worst

I hardly can pick up a thing from the floor

get up from bed is also such a task

i went to see the physiotherapist 2 times already

i went to the Chinese Sen sia yesterday

the pastier pray for me.

praise the LORD

i am much better today

Thank you GOD

I am much better

pampered myself today.

I have my backache 4 a week already

but I still can help myself

yesterday is really terrible

I can hardly get up from my chair

I have to hold on something to get up

It really hurts

I get myself to the physiotherapy department

I told them that I really need help

She give me some pain relieve

That's to say she give me a course of heat treatment

than next week she will give me some definite treatment

last night it still hurts a lot

I get up and it is still no better

So this morning,I cant even bend myself

so today ,I have a rest ---that's no work for me today

ha ha ,today can eat and can notwork.....

thinking hard....

dad was saying why the Tang family not so smart.

i keep quite

why the ngu family not so smart either! i continue to keep quite.

the elder sister of the newly wed is very fat !

the body shape worse than the mother

the mother hired a nice cloth from the shop and she look nicer than her daughter

the daughter look as if she had a few children

i don't know why?

well everyone up there

eat to live and not live to eat.....

always remember that

they all eat like hell.....

as if been starfing

but why eat so much to make you look ugly....

girls, make yourself presentable and nice..

you are meant to do that in life,

don't over eat to make yourself look ugly

always remember, EAT TO LIVE AND NOT LIVE TO EAT....

6/12/2009

Another 12 days, we are going to Singapore--yaahooooooo!

wedding day for my niece , who had Stephen Johnson Disease when she was in form 4

her face was a bit dis- figured ,but still look OK

the bridegroom come as early as 730am

as usual, there s the row of men and ladies

making fun or make wedding an interesting moment to be remembered

they make jokes, play games, make people laugh and giggle

one of the games they play is

hiding the gate key inside a piece of frozen ice and to obtain the key to open the gate

the process left a pool of water outside the gate floor

mu mu go out to put a piece of cloth onto the bridegrooms car

the car happened to be my boss Mez--KH1010!

what a coincidence!

but she can't open the security door

so i go out to help

as i step out to the gate, i lost balance

i had a heavy fall onto my own body

my beloved camera hit onto the floor fairly hard and can't be used anymore!

my body is so painful till this morning


while i had my fall, some other events happen silmotaneously

the bride bouquet of flower dropped onto the floor


the toilet door had lock someone from inside and can't be opened

hmmmmmmm

that's the day!

feel bored...

wake up early this morning

do the household chaos

on line , check face book and read blogs

feel rather bored

small dizziling outside

think of so many things in life

what is life after all?

met a patient, an old man-- 84 yrs old

he knew paternal grandpa, also a teacher last time

he had 9 children --3 man and 6 women

same as mine.

but his children are many over seas

4 girls and 2 boys over seas

4 girls all in US

1 boy in Taiwan and another in Aussie --Melbourne

but he is sick in hospital

i don't see any of his own children come to see him

only a nephew come to see him

he had US PR

but he told me they had try so hard ,wanting to stay in US,

but his other partner can't stand the coldness oversea

sad stories

now they stay with his unmarried girl at home

life is tough and life is uncertain

but that s life

they are old

but whenever i talked to him , he sigh.

i am very sure he has a lot s of unhappiness un reveal

feel sorry for him.

but that's is life

i know that family fairly well

i know the younger generations has many young deaths

but the old are really old

that's life

my Sarikei trips..

13/9/2009
went home to see lawyer to sale our home sweet home

see home feel very unhappy

grass grow till the drain to the balcony and to the door of the kitchen

the grass were very healthy

cut grass and clean and mop to make it look cleaner

14/9/2009---go to sign sale agreement

home to Kuching on 14/9/2009 night


take annual leave on 20/11/2009 and to Sarikei on the same day

straight to sign electricity meter transfer form and the water meter to the new owner

21/11/2009, go to lawyer there to get the cheque and hand over the house keys to the lawyer

come back the same day


29/11/2009-- back to Sarikei to attend Ah Han 's wedding

walk over to see the house---it belongs to other people!

but I still peep from outside!

feel a bit sad

but I don't want to stay long there.

I stay in hotel in Sarikei for the first time in my life!

our house belongs to other people!

Han's wedding day.

30/11/2009-------is Ah Han's big day in Sarikei.

I went to Sarikei on 29/11/2009 by 830 am bus. I met a friend ( Mary Goh) from Sarikei in wet market that morning , telling me that the bus are mostly full cause of the Hari Raya Qurban/ Aidil Adha holiday following the week ends. So I rush to the bus station and book the ticket. Truly it is rather full. I manage to get a seat.

The weather is fine. I reached Sarikei around 230pm. Than my brother came to fetch me from the bus station. When I reached my brother's home, I met his wife . She is busy going out to buy something for the son's wedding. I was left alone with Chiew Huong. I go to her room and talk to her. She show me 3 blouses brought back by Kerk . There were presents from eldest sister to her.I ask if she can wear them. She seem quite happy over it and she put on for me to see. Boleh tahan. After that we have a good chat over everyday life. She shared with me how she was ill treated by her sister -in -law. Well I council her a bit intending to calm her down.

I keep thinking to myself. Why is life difficult for her. May be she 's also at fault.She is not lovely at all. She talk in a very rough manner. She make faces as she speak. I just don't understand!

4th and 5th sisters come around 6pm. We have a buffet dinner at their house that night with all the guests from both families. Ah Han wife relatives and our relatives. The relatives were from all over the places. Some from Miri, Lawas, Sibu, Bintulu, Johor Bahru, KL and so forth .We eat ,chat and we stay in their house till late. Than we left for the hotel. The next morning, we left hotel early to my brother house.

Very interesting. When we go and fetch the bride, they were many procedures. They were many jokes and fun.

We reach the church at 10 am sharp. we all stay there for the church ceremony till nearly 12 mid day. Then Ah Han aunt from JB cooked nice dishes for all of us.

At night , we have our dinner in the restaurant. All together ,we have 20 tables . Very grand one. Beautiful day to be remembered.

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Make myself real busy today so that I don't feel bored. So around 5pm, I suggested to go out for a ride with our motorbike . So our 1st station is Sarawak Plaza. We park our bike just outside the gate. Happily we went in and round and round. When we came out, we found out that the back tyre is punctured. So dad say he drive round to see if there is any work shop that is still open at this hour. Praise The LORD! there is one shop about to close door. So dad got his bike repaired.

When dad was away, I was left alone near the Sarawak Plaza for about an hour. . It is sort of fun to see people passing by and see the traffic as well. So long I don't have time to see people. I was sitting next to the flower bay near to the pediatrician crossing. I see families (may be they come for holiday) some stop to ask me where to eat . I don't know well that area either! I saw two amoh ladies. one fat and one thin. I just don't understand why they don't use good supporting bra, they look horrible!

As we drive home ,we saw a road side stole sailing durians. We stop by to buy durians. We get 3 for RM 10. We enjoy it so much.

what to do .....

Once the old man ask me, what am I to do when I retired in 2 years time. Well, I just don't understand people sometimes. Why bother what I am doing? Well I woundn't be out of job if I am hardworking. The job is there waiting for me. I wouldn't be out of job.Then why ask me ? how about the old man himself......doing nothing much, the house is not cleaned, the laundry is done very ocasionaly, the floor is moped once in a while. Always make comments about other people . Well ,in this world, the mirror who image on other people is very clear, but the one to themselve is rather blur.

I take out all those to be washed, I washed all that I have to wash.I am tired now. I will do whatever I want to wash again later.

I always asked myself. If only I am a bit younger,I want to do my degree. But now that I am old. It is a bit tough. The other day, when doing my PTK4 assignments, I feel so lost. I don't know where to start. Luckily got DD to help me out. Ha haa...... I discovered one secret. My friend also ask someone else to do his project. So I am not the only one.My friends, at my age, who do degree now , suffers so much. They look so tired and old , may be because of the stress.

Yesterday , got one specialist, came to my CCU. He is a nice Dr to talk to. Actually , he always come to our area. But lately I don't see him much.I ask ,why he seldom come now? He say something else. He ask me ,how young I am . I told him. He said that I am around 50 only. Ha haa......... is he just try to pull my legs?

Sometimes, I used motorbike to go to work. When I used motor bike, I have to put on non

uniform. Then I will change to uniform at work place. They all say that I look nice in my other clothing.

gtg

life is full of..............

I got mood swing this few days. I have wide range of thoughts at a time.Sometimes ,I can be so emotional and I just sat in my office and cry. After that I go to the wards and meet my clients again ---internal and external clients.
Now it is school holidays. It also affect me in the hospital! They follow their parents and relatives to hospital! I hate that. because it is not their place to go!I hate to face the parents or relatives. I would talk to them instead. I will pad their shoulder and talk to them. They are very cooperative most of the time.I will tell them--do you know that this is hospital? Why are you coming here? You all go to school? You learn about the bacteria thingy in school? they will node their head . And then ,I will tell them not to come again next time. And I usually ask them to hold little finger as a promise. It is so cute sometimes. I am fade up with that way---may be will come out with another way next time.
When I come to the office, I feel lonely .I think of the words people used to say----you are so straight forward. You always talk as if you are the winner.You always think that you are great and you are nothing!you think you are clever but you are nuts!These comments keep turning in my mind. And it doesn't go away ! It s sort of hurting me all the time. What a life I am living! your children also left you because you are a bad mother. Am I like what someone says? I am confused. I always thought my children left home for good. But what is the comments at the end of the day ? OMG . God , I leave it to you for good judgement. I am tired!
10 Malaysia plan... We have a part to play as well.2 days ago, we receive a circular on planning on 10 Malaysia plan. And the dead line is 30/11/2009. Malaysia government like to give short notice of doing things.So yesterday ,I have to go to search for information's. Only to find out that the people who are involve, all go on leave! This is Malaysia boleh!Whole day spend my time for nothing much.I try my level best to tell my Nursing sisters to do what have to be done.So their weekend have to be spent on 10 Malaysia plan.
Our right hand side Kuching neighbour come from else where for holiday. At the same time ,they cut the backyard tall grass. I am sort of scared because it looks like a haunted house with the tall grass. And the other day I saw a big rat inside the compound. I hate rats.The neighbour are noisy.
I am harvesting the guava from our back yard. It is as big as the newborn baby's head. It is really rewarding! I like the feeling of harvesting the fruit you grown by yourself.
This weekend I am going to Sarikei ( no more Sarikei home!)to join Ah Han's wedding.I heard that this couple had hard saving for their wedding. They both just come out to work .And they don't earn much. They have to spend so much for their wedding. well, every one gets married. No need to spend a lot on your wedding. cin cai sedikit lah.
Today is public holiday, I am not working. so I get up early to blog.
Last night DD and I talk in the lap top . I am so Happy over it.I have learn a lot of staff from DD. She is never angry over me when I ask stupid questions. DD thank you so much.
I still remember the 1st time DD hold my hand to teach me how to sms.My hands become so stiff with all this little electronic thingy! But I make it . Thank you so much DD.gtg with my laundry and household thingy.

The little piece of paper......

I placed the cheque in the drawer in my room and in my working bag for the past 24 hours or so. Today , I get it photostated and keep a copy for remembrance. That is the biggest money (in cheque) I ever had in my life! This morning , I carry it ( a house) in my pocket to be deposited in the bank. Dad carry me on his motorbike.
I feel sad today. Our house belongs to someone else.
I don't feel I have any effort buying that house, because it is cut through my pay slip.
Our first and very only house in Sarikei!
But Sarikei is not a good place for me!
It brings me bad memories.
I hate the people in Sarikei.
They are funny and the people there are full of jealousy.
Including your own people!
Sarikei is full of funny people!
When you buy a new car , Sarikei people look at you at different angle. They are jealous!
When you do renovation to your house, you can hear a funny sound around you, they are jealous!
When they know that you are better than them , they are unhappy. Actually , they are jealous!
Including your own people and relatives!
When your children get good results in school, they are jealous!
What else again about SARIKEI.
Bye bye SARIKEI
I love you but I don't like the people there.

Memories........

we have sold our house in Sarikei! I was telling DD the house in exchange of the little piece of cheque! I mean a little piece of paper.Dad say , feel a bit sad ! I look it at a different angle. since we cannot take care of it well , then might as well get another owner to look after it well. Thank you God for choosing another good owner for our house.
Last of the last....
we 2 drive to Sarikei home for the last time.
we 2 sleep there for the last round.
we 2 see the house from inside for the last round.
we 2 packed and see all the things inside for the last round.
Dad bring in the last thing to our car.
we 2 lock the gate for the last round.
I can see dad feel uneasy .
but I am a bit stronger in that sence.
the house keys were handed over to the new owner.
bye bye , former house.

Real busy week......

Year end fever for the managers

Piles of works waiting for us after my leave from KL.The year end appraisals---ACR(annual confidential reports )for all my staff, the date line reports, the minutes etc. so much work to do.I really have to work so hard to finish all that. Well ,I have finished all that. And I can relax a bit after this.Yesterday , when Angela rang me whether to have a holiday in Singapore, I straight away agree. I want to go for a break out of my work place. Ha .....ha...... happy to have my Xmas oversea for 2009!

Never take things for granted

my 2 days leave

It is such a lesson to learn in this 2 days. I am staying with my friends daughter place. she is graduated with civil engineering. Her mum told me that, when she just graduated, she worked for a Malay boss. She promised to pay her RM 2.5 k per month. When coming to payment, she pay her only RM 6-700 per month. she worked for her for about 6 mouths. I also don't know why she continued to work without money. May be because she is a native. We are different people. Her father is a doctor, I am very show he knew what is best for her daughter

Don't take things for granted..

My friends are very blunt with her children. When we are inside the car, she bought a new car --RUSH, for her daughter.She told me is her first time in this new car.Her girl didn't put on her seat belt. She says to her daughter-- better use your seat belt, you don't bring trouble to me. I feel sort of hurt from her words. I am very sure this is how her girl feel.

My friend is very nagging. One night when her daughter come back from work. She nags so much , that I also feel that she is too much. She keeps going to her girl's room while she is sleeping. she will ask her to eat , to bath and many more. I feel bored. I am very sure this is how her girl feels.I always think to myself. If the children are not with us, are they the same? then leave them alone so that they grow at their own pace.If you keep telling them, they are bored with you. And they might hate you.I noticed that her daughter sometimes, node their head instead of talking. I think sure they feel bored .

Lie for good

So when my girl want to meet me, I have to make up story.Because I always tell my friends that my girl is in Ipoh. Or else if I say my girl in KL, and I want to stay with her, I feel shy. That is why I lie to her that my girl come to KL for a course. This is to ease my shy.

As a mother ,we have to lie many times to make things look OK to people.This is life.

LOL...........

PTK4
Went for my PTK4 on 1-4/11/2009. It has been so stressful for us. We have to do public speaking in Bahasa Malayu. We have to do group work and we have to present the group work at a very short preparation time. Our programme stretched up to 11 or 12 midnight. It was such a stressful thing! And today, we have 3 hours written examination. OMG...........it is an open book exam! 1st time in my live that we are doing open book exam!
Everybody is so tensed up yesterday ! That is the day before exam. Everybody read and work so hard for the exam. But for me, I was so sleepy when facing any books. OMG! I am worried or what am I to do? I think to myself, if I stressed out so much to study, I wouldn't get anything also. So I prefer to hold back.I don't want to study at all. I left everything to GOD.So I go here and there to see what others are doing. When I go to the Photostat room, I saw so many people Photostatting a lot of everything. So I look around and photostat what the others are Photostatting.I gain knowledge in that way! or else I will feel so sleepy. The others all laugh at me being spy of what others are doing. Actually I am so sleepy.So last night, more exciting! Everybody on their lap top to put in whatever thing they feel important for them.But I still can't do anything!I thought whatever I know,

I will known already, what I don't know I wouldn't know just by reading at the last moment.So I go to sleep early. My roommate ask me... you always sleep early. Yes I say, I always do. I can sleep very well last night.I had a funny dream.I dream that as if i am going for Chin Ming festival.I saw my grandma in my dream . She looked healthy in my dream.
Come this early morning. I looked around and see how are people behaving.Interesting!so many people bring lap top........ful of burga..itu memang Malaysia boleh!I noticed one lady bringing a big bag of books using the traveling bag.
When the exam paper was distributed down, well ,all the questions were from every day work life procedures! I can do them without much difficulty.How much the books are used, I am feeling very doubtful.Now I know what open book exam means. You have no time to open your books. it is just a act . I really laugh out loud. This is life.

what is happening?

my stomach is not user friendly.

Last 2 weeks I had a terrible gastric pain.I can't quite remember what I have eaten.

But the pain was so bad that I have to go to the hospital for 2 doses of injection of buscopan.

DD mum thank you so much for sending me to hospital for the injections. I will always remember you for that. When I need help, you are there to help me.I know whom I can depend on. God, thank you for giving me such a lovely girl .

Last night, I have the same problem again. It really hurts and DD brought me to hospital for injection again.So today I have to be extra careful when I eat.

PTK4

I am quite pissed off when hearing about my PTK4. I will be having my PTK4 in KL from 1-4 of November. My friends and me will stay in KL for a few days for holidaying there.I have never had a Malay class and i have to do public speaking in Bahasa malayu .What is that man? I am really born to fail . but whatever it is, I will just do whatever I can.

mammogram and the other tests

I have my mammogram done on 29/9/2009. The result is good . I don't have anything. i also have my OGTT done on 17/10/2009. I am not a diabetic patient!Thank GOD, I can eat whatever thing I want! but I will continued to eat well to keep myself fit.

I have a dream

Last week I dream of my late mother. I brought her in QSK 2010. Sort of I brought her to her relative house(don't know whose house)She dressed up very smart -whole suit of flowery in nature. She was still very strong and quite young look in my dream. As I bought rambutons, she ask me to buy a branch for her to bring to her relative. hey so near le.

I m still alive.

1. 15000

2.45000+15500=60500

3.56000

4. 0



which is the biggest no.? you all can guess? Of cause no.2.

but what happen now , you all know. That is what I m getting now. GOK.

So whom that I spent the most?

My love goes to where? GOK

Someone who thinks the others bad, will get the bad by themself. God is very great. The Amighty GOD. I love you.

GOD is very fair. If you give more, more will return , and vice versa.

If someone is very calculative, God knows exactly what to do.

change change and change ... to improve ur life?

*appreciations

-there are people born , who never know how to appreciate others. But tell you all folks, knowing how to appreciate people can be learned. I met a friend, she don't know what is appreciation. she only know how to receive and don't even know how to say --thank you. You think people love you in that sense ?GOK.

*only know self pity.

-that type of life cannot sustain long. People will get out of your way one day. we all don't like that

*only know how to receive and don't know how to give
-receive , receive, and receive......they never know how to give. Give anything... love, care, gifts, etc. they thought that is a must that we should give and they receive. Life is not true in that sense. Tell you gals, life is not like that.We are humans. We all need people to give back some of the love we gave away.It can be learned.

*Cry ,cry , and cry

-people who cry do not know how to make decision well. They are thinking when they cry , the others will give in . life is not like that. Others get irritated one day of your cry. Only people who don't know how to behave do that sort of irresponsible gesture.

*don't do to others what you do not want them to do to you

-always think, if the other people do what they do to me, am I happy? If I am not happy ,then I don't do to people. Say mocking words to others and not knowing that she had make a mistake, it is unbearable.

I have a friend who stay with me for a while. At the beginning, I am stretching myself to sort of please her. But of course I also slow down, after all I am a human being. But there were many saura after that. I heard that. I am a God 's daughter. I can hear a lot of sounds which are unheard by people. But mind you, I am using my six sense to hear the unheard.I am some one who is smart.

*Pulling long face at any hour of the day
-It is unbearable sometimes.We don't even know what has gone wrong and the face is very long .Why , why .don't know.GOK..who on earth that others are so good to another fellow that she or he is not aware!

The siblings are all dead........

3/10/2009
The mother was bringing the children to the backyard to cut some branches for the lantern to celebrate the moon cake festival in the evening. That was what I used to do when my children were small. but of all the thing, there came the wasps from the bush and attacked all of them. The 2 siblings died --the boy is 4 years old and the girl is 6 years old. Both died before reaching hospital. The mother was ventilated in the ICU till today. The other boy, that is the elder brother to the two siblings , died yesterday. OMG! I feel so sad today. I pity the father. He has lost 3 children --all his kids just like that! What is life man!

pissed off today.....

I came to work early as usual--that is 0647 am. The jam was bad. I have to wait for 2 traffic round before I can go. I reached hospital at 0708am. That is for 4 kilometers of journey.

I went for the usual Monday meeting at cardiac clinic --from 0745 to around 0830 or 0900.But today it is chaired by our Junior cardiologist and we finished at 0805. So I rushed to the main matrons office to take over duty from our morning nursing sister .

As usual, we have many things to settle.I can settle that well.

Is about 0930, when I go to CTW . There is this crazy HO. thinking that he is smart.I asked, You are Dr.? then I will look at their name tag. He ask me back --why?I am quite annoyed by the way he answered me. I told him that he is blunt of what he is asking.And i go away from him.

At the same time, i see so many students lining up the corridor. Are they supposed to be with the patients or standing around like idiod? I am so peaced off this morning!

taking things for granted

old man patient

This patient has been with us for about 2 weeks already.Every time I meet him ,he will shade tears. If he is an actor, can earn good money le !.Actually , he is from Bintangor.He can relate many old stories from Bintangor. When he talk, he also cry, that is the most beautiful part of the story!Then I have to calm him down.The first day I see him, he is coming for angiogram.His findings in the angiogram is that he needs a by pass surgery.He told me, will he be AMEN if he go for the surgery.......meaning that will he die during operation.Then he start to cry That is the first time I see him cry.His son is vascular surgeon in England.Then I stay to council the old man(79 years old) After operation , he is OK and was discharged yesterday(23092009)May God bless him?

where are you?

our little sister was talking to me while lying down side by side to me last night. I related my old patient to her. She starts to shade tears. She related her story when she was asked to get adminted to hospital when her blood test shows meliodosis in 2005.That was when I just transferred to Kuching.I was in SGH on 15082005 .She told me she keep crying while in Sarikei Hospital.She felt scared and helpless without mummy around.Luckily ,Nong was with her in the hospital.I was neither easy that time. I was new to SGH.I was also helpless like the little girl that time. We were shading tears together during that time.

I arranged her to get down to SGH for treatment. Praised Lord that she is very OK now.

Nong, DD missed you a lot. Without you, she will cry more that time. Thank you Nong for helping her while mum was not around.

funny things happening.

2 stories--

There's this Chinese family whose father passed away the other day. one of the son already buy coffin for the diseased. But the coffin vendor telephoned the other brother who answered phone monotones. --ya... hmmmm. ye.. so the coffin vendor get for granted that he wanted to buy a coffin. At the end, two coffins bought for the same corpse. Who is wrong? GOK.

The morale of the story is, speak full sentences. Don't ya ,ye, hm and ho.. ho..

The A(H1N1) team of doctors are very stressed. They hold meetings every now and then so as to iron out the situation in the hospital. For Ur information, Sarawak state has done badly in the controlling of the A(H1N1).Sabah state--no death so far. So during one of the meetings, one of the Dr gets very angry. He says that he become Dr Lee Chu Huk. Dr lee is also one of the A( H1N1 ) Dr. But the previous Dr become an incredible "HUK"!

sial, sial and sial............

I am always wandering-- am I so sial?
beranak girl.....sial
the shop house burnt down...... po chai bor !
not earning money in shares....... sial because my mulut besar
getting heart attack ....... the wife is at fault,
going for operation.......the wife is wrong
going for promotion..... the wife is at fault again, because she ask him to apply for promotion.
once more again , and again, and again........and again .....and again......... the wife is for ever sial.
now what again...........
the children courses .........the wife is at fault again .
I am always blamed whenver the thing come out not to his likings. I am at my top patience already.

2 weeks ago, the wave came again,
I was told to stop him to look at the TV and lap top on saham things .
so I am too kind sometimes, so whenever he see, I just remind him don't see again.
The whole night up and down, doing what , I don't know.
Around 2 or 3 am, I wake up and see him seeing the shares things with the lap top again!
So I say ,try not to see the share market again lah, since you tell me to stop you.
He scolded me so loud . I think the whole row of the inmates can hear his voice."The money is mine , why do you have 2 bother. I finish my money, then I will commit suicide."I feel so shameful of neighbouring to hear us, I stop instantly.
I go 2 work in the morning.
I rang him from work place, hoping 2 tell him 2 stop the share thing. He shouted and scold me again over the phone.He say thing like-- I am not fit 2 become his wife, he no need me 2 remind him of what 2 do n many more. I say, it is OK 4 me, all the words are from his mouth. So i say I wouldn't talk 2 u again.
So till 2day, I didn't talk.


May b around 4 or 5 in the morning, he get up from sleep n scold me----alone talking--cursing me all sort of thing from his mouth.
I pretend not 2 hear.But I heard everything.

SIAL,SIAL, SIAL----just like the worm, kana pun SIAL----- and drive off into the thin air.

I am just wandering, who 's sial? mind u, I am not sial, I supported all my children to school. they are all ok now. Please continued to be ok, for the sake of ur mummy. ur mum has no position in the family. But it is ok. I have all of you to be proud of. I am so happy with you all. You all are my pride.

life is full of chalenges.................

I met a orthopaedic surgeon---Mr Wong on the corridor this morning. We worked together last time in Sarikei. He is a good and nice doctor. I still remember ,the couple have a baby boy while working in Sarikei . I even go for their full moon party for the boy. He shared with me so many things in the corridor. He told me that his wife is taking 6 months um payed leave because she had a crash with her boss. His wife is a radiologist in SGH .I wander what is happening in SGH? politics every where. Sometimes we have to take a deep breath to smooth out the situation.

I share with him about my right sided lateral side below knee pain . It come in the morning when I get up from sleep. It can be quite painful that I feel bad about it. When I defaecate, the pain will come also.It has been there for quite sometime already. When I have the pains and aches, I will think of him. But today, God send him to me. Thank you, the Almighty God .You are always with me when I need you. He told me to take 2 tablets of neurobion instead of one. I will take 2 from tomorrow onwards. Thank you so much Dr . Wong. GBU.

Family and family and family.........

When I was a little girl , I envy that I got married one day and have a happy family. I dreamed that I am having a few kids and live happily ever after.Then I go to secondary school . Life was tough. There was little money. My dream then was to study hard and earn a living by myself. I dream of going to university and become someone useful. Life was not as what I think. We are very poor. We were penniless.Going to school was not a luxury. It was a fighting experience. Every time when the new term starts, it was our big challenge. We have to beg , and beg from our parents to let us go for another term. Then another term starts and ends, the story goes on till we were in form 5. Then the story ends there, because we have to find our own living. Than come nursing. It was my 1st job applied and I got it. If not ,I don't know who I am today. I start training on 3/5/1972 in School of Nursing in Kuching. The training was 3 years 4 months( I don't know why 4 months extra) I think we follow England program last time. Life was tough that time. We were always scolded by our seniors , bullied by them and quietly cried in the corner and start work again. We never dare to grumble or say a word of unhappiness. We are in the world of scare. Scared of people expelled us, scared of no job, scared of parents scold us......many scares. That was our life.

Nowadays it is very different. Go to school as they preferences. Come out from school, don't want to work. Some still want to study, thinking their parents can feed them for ever and ever. When they earn money, they know how to keep for them self. They forget how their parents strungle so hard to survive them. Some of the parents , more pitiful. I heard my friends tell me, one thread of mee also didn't see. Why are life like that nowadays? we don't know.Is it a ill ed society's? Only GOD know. I don't mean all kids are like that, some are very good also. But the percentage is few. When I do counseling, I always have to tell my staff , have to remember to send money home for your parents.Gtg

Life is full of excitements..

I haven't blog for quite sometime . Mainly because I am lazy.Many things happen each day.And it has been very exciting.Oh ya, I just want to tell you all, I used motorbike to go for work. Partly because it is saving petrol money, and I can avoid the jam. i can reach home within 15 minutes, or else I use 45 minutes to one hour, imagine how much time I can save in a year?People will say, hey , you are matron, people will look down on you. Who cares, if you have no money then people despise you. Oh ya, a few doctors follow my footstep using motorbike to come to work.

The whether is horrible lately.Someday it is so sunny with the haze and the other day, heavy rain.and the type A H1N1....which contribute another factor for less crowd in the shopping mall.Even the church has less people. They say they are scared of the H1N1. but whatever it i , where to hide. If you get it, it is for the better, because you will have the immunity. Everything leave it to the Almighty God.

On 9/8/2009, one of our nursing sister colleague in Bintulu hung herself. I heard that she is so stressful because their matron always scold her. But whatever it is ,now that she is gone forever. I also don't know lah, people nowadays very sensitive. She is a Christan also, and she works for more than 30 years already. she has a happy family (Father And Mother I Love You) The children were all graduated already.Now the children have no mother to love. Sigh!Life is like that sometimes.

It is 1pm in the afternoon, daddy is cooking now, I love dad for his nice cooking.I see that he is going to cook fry rice. Lately he always hide in the home and not going out, he is worry about the H1N1!

We have set up the ILI (influenza like illness) ward. So whoever has the ILI will be admitted there. We don't know where will it eradicated. It has been quite a serious matter lately.gtg

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