tanngu2008
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Never take things for granted
my 2 days leave
It is such a lesson to learn in this 2 days. I am staying with my friends daughter place. she is graduated with civil engineering. Her mum told me that, when she just graduated, she worked for a Malay boss. She promised to pay her RM 2.5 k per month. When coming to payment, she pay her only RM 6-700 per month. she worked for her for about 6 mouths. I also don't know why she continued to work without money. May be because she is a native. We are different people. Her father is a doctor, I am very show he knew what is best for her daughter
Don't take things for granted..
My friends are very blunt with her children. When we are inside the car, she bought a new car --RUSH, for her daughter.She told me is her first time in this new car.Her girl didn't put on her seat belt. She says to her daughter-- better use your seat belt, you don't bring trouble to me. I feel sort of hurt from her words. I am very sure this is how her girl feel.
My friend is very nagging. One night when her daughter come back from work. She nags so much , that I also feel that she is too much. She keeps going to her girl's room while she is sleeping. she will ask her to eat , to bath and many more. I feel bored. I am very sure this is how her girl feels.I always think to myself. If the children are not with us, are they the same? then leave them alone so that they grow at their own pace.If you keep telling them, they are bored with you. And they might hate you.I noticed that her daughter sometimes, node their head instead of talking. I think sure they feel bored .
Lie for good
So when my girl want to meet me, I have to make up story.Because I always tell my friends that my girl is in Ipoh. Or else if I say my girl in KL, and I want to stay with her, I feel shy. That is why I lie to her that my girl come to KL for a course. This is to ease my shy.
As a mother ,we have to lie many times to make things look OK to people.This is life.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
LOL...........
PTK4
Went for my PTK4 on 1-4/11/2009. It has been so stressful for us. We have to do public speaking in Bahasa Malayu. We have to do group work and we have to present the group work at a very short preparation time. Our programme stretched up to 11 or 12 midnight. It was such a stressful thing! And today, we have 3 hours written examination. OMG...........it is an open book exam! 1st time in my live that we are doing open book exam!
Everybody is so tensed up yesterday ! That is the day before exam. Everybody read and work so hard for the exam. But for me, I was so sleepy when facing any books. OMG! I am worried or what am I to do? I think to myself, if I stressed out so much to study, I wouldn't get anything also. So I prefer to hold back.I don't want to study at all. I left everything to GOD.So I go here and there to see what others are doing. When I go to the Photostat room, I saw so many people Photostatting a lot of everything. So I look around and photostat what the others are Photostatting.I gain knowledge in that way! or else I will feel so sleepy. The others all laugh at me being spy of what others are doing. Actually I am so sleepy.So last night, more exciting! Everybody on their lap top to put in whatever thing they feel important for them.But I still can't do anything!I thought whatever I know,
Went for my PTK4 on 1-4/11/2009. It has been so stressful for us. We have to do public speaking in Bahasa Malayu. We have to do group work and we have to present the group work at a very short preparation time. Our programme stretched up to 11 or 12 midnight. It was such a stressful thing! And today, we have 3 hours written examination. OMG...........it is an open book exam! 1st time in my live that we are doing open book exam!
Everybody is so tensed up yesterday ! That is the day before exam. Everybody read and work so hard for the exam. But for me, I was so sleepy when facing any books. OMG! I am worried or what am I to do? I think to myself, if I stressed out so much to study, I wouldn't get anything also. So I prefer to hold back.I don't want to study at all. I left everything to GOD.So I go here and there to see what others are doing. When I go to the Photostat room, I saw so many people Photostatting a lot of everything. So I look around and photostat what the others are Photostatting.I gain knowledge in that way! or else I will feel so sleepy. The others all laugh at me being spy of what others are doing. Actually I am so sleepy.So last night, more exciting! Everybody on their lap top to put in whatever thing they feel important for them.But I still can't do anything!I thought whatever I know,
I will known already, what I don't know I wouldn't know just by reading at the last moment.So I go to sleep early. My roommate ask me... you always sleep early. Yes I say, I always do. I can sleep very well last night.I had a funny dream.I dream that as if i am going for Chin Ming festival.I saw my grandma in my dream . She looked healthy in my dream.
Come this early morning. I looked around and see how are people behaving.Interesting!so many people bring lap top........ful of burga..itu memang Malaysia boleh!I noticed one lady bringing a big bag of books using the traveling bag.
When the exam paper was distributed down, well ,all the questions were from every day work life procedures! I can do them without much difficulty.How much the books are used, I am feeling very doubtful.Now I know what open book exam means. You have no time to open your books. it is just a act . I really laugh out loud. This is life.
Come this early morning. I looked around and see how are people behaving.Interesting!so many people bring lap top........ful of burga..itu memang Malaysia boleh!I noticed one lady bringing a big bag of books using the traveling bag.
When the exam paper was distributed down, well ,all the questions were from every day work life procedures! I can do them without much difficulty.How much the books are used, I am feeling very doubtful.Now I know what open book exam means. You have no time to open your books. it is just a act . I really laugh out loud. This is life.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
what is happening?
my stomach is not user friendly.
Last 2 weeks I had a terrible gastric pain.I can't quite remember what I have eaten.
But the pain was so bad that I have to go to the hospital for 2 doses of injection of buscopan.
DD mum thank you so much for sending me to hospital for the injections. I will always remember you for that. When I need help, you are there to help me.I know whom I can depend on. God, thank you for giving me such a lovely girl .
Last night, I have the same problem again. It really hurts and DD brought me to hospital for injection again.So today I have to be extra careful when I eat.
PTK4
I am quite pissed off when hearing about my PTK4. I will be having my PTK4 in KL from 1-4 of November. My friends and me will stay in KL for a few days for holidaying there.I have never had a Malay class and i have to do public speaking in Bahasa malayu .What is that man? I am really born to fail . but whatever it is, I will just do whatever I can.
mammogram and the other tests
I have my mammogram done on 29/9/2009. The result is good . I don't have anything. i also have my OGTT done on 17/10/2009. I am not a diabetic patient!Thank GOD, I can eat whatever thing I want! but I will continued to eat well to keep myself fit.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
I have a dream
Last week I dream of my late mother. I brought her in QSK 2010. Sort of I brought her to her relative house(don't know whose house)She dressed up very smart -whole suit of flowery in nature. She was still very strong and quite young look in my dream. As I bought rambutons, she ask me to buy a branch for her to bring to her relative. hey so near le.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
I m still alive.
1. 15000
2.45000+15500=60500
3.56000
4. 0
which is the biggest no.? you all can guess? Of cause no.2.
but what happen now , you all know. That is what I m getting now. GOK.
So whom that I spent the most?
My love goes to where? GOK
Someone who thinks the others bad, will get the bad by themself. God is very great. The Amighty GOD. I love you.
GOD is very fair. If you give more, more will return , and vice versa.
If someone is very calculative, God knows exactly what to do.
2.45000+15500=60500
3.56000
4. 0
which is the biggest no.? you all can guess? Of cause no.2.
but what happen now , you all know. That is what I m getting now. GOK.
So whom that I spent the most?
My love goes to where? GOK
Someone who thinks the others bad, will get the bad by themself. God is very great. The Amighty GOD. I love you.
GOD is very fair. If you give more, more will return , and vice versa.
If someone is very calculative, God knows exactly what to do.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
change change and change ... to improve ur life?
*appreciations
-there are people born , who never know how to appreciate others. But tell you all folks, knowing how to appreciate people can be learned. I met a friend, she don't know what is appreciation. she only know how to receive and don't even know how to say --thank you. You think people love you in that sense ?GOK.
*only know self pity.
-that type of life cannot sustain long. People will get out of your way one day. we all don't like that
*only know how to receive and don't know how to give
-receive , receive, and receive......they never know how to give. Give anything... love, care, gifts, etc. they thought that is a must that we should give and they receive. Life is not true in that sense. Tell you gals, life is not like that.We are humans. We all need people to give back some of the love we gave away.It can be learned.
-receive , receive, and receive......they never know how to give. Give anything... love, care, gifts, etc. they thought that is a must that we should give and they receive. Life is not true in that sense. Tell you gals, life is not like that.We are humans. We all need people to give back some of the love we gave away.It can be learned.
*Cry ,cry , and cry
-people who cry do not know how to make decision well. They are thinking when they cry , the others will give in . life is not like that. Others get irritated one day of your cry. Only people who don't know how to behave do that sort of irresponsible gesture.
*don't do to others what you do not want them to do to you
-always think, if the other people do what they do to me, am I happy? If I am not happy ,then I don't do to people. Say mocking words to others and not knowing that she had make a mistake, it is unbearable.
I have a friend who stay with me for a while. At the beginning, I am stretching myself to sort of please her. But of course I also slow down, after all I am a human being. But there were many saura after that. I heard that. I am a God 's daughter. I can hear a lot of sounds which are unheard by people. But mind you, I am using my six sense to hear the unheard.I am some one who is smart.
*Pulling long face at any hour of the day
-It is unbearable sometimes.We don't even know what has gone wrong and the face is very long .Why , why .don't know.GOK..who on earth that others are so good to another fellow that she or he is not aware!
-It is unbearable sometimes.We don't even know what has gone wrong and the face is very long .Why , why .don't know.GOK..who on earth that others are so good to another fellow that she or he is not aware!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
The siblings are all dead........
3/10/2009
The mother was bringing the children to the backyard to cut some branches for the lantern to celebrate the moon cake festival in the evening. That was what I used to do when my children were small. but of all the thing, there came the wasps from the bush and attacked all of them. The 2 siblings died --the boy is 4 years old and the girl is 6 years old. Both died before reaching hospital. The mother was ventilated in the ICU till today. The other boy, that is the elder brother to the two siblings , died yesterday. OMG! I feel so sad today. I pity the father. He has lost 3 children --all his kids just like that! What is life man!
The mother was bringing the children to the backyard to cut some branches for the lantern to celebrate the moon cake festival in the evening. That was what I used to do when my children were small. but of all the thing, there came the wasps from the bush and attacked all of them. The 2 siblings died --the boy is 4 years old and the girl is 6 years old. Both died before reaching hospital. The mother was ventilated in the ICU till today. The other boy, that is the elder brother to the two siblings , died yesterday. OMG! I feel so sad today. I pity the father. He has lost 3 children --all his kids just like that! What is life man!
